tonight, tonight

memories i've never remembered crawl deep inside of my mind. like a childs soft walking, or a toddlers laugh, their innocent memories. then, unexpectedly, they turn into something much bigger like the guilt of a murderer, or the presence of a liar. i grip myself awake, back into this year, and reality washes over me. sending reassurance and both sadness to my brain waves. shaking both the warmth and the cruelty of our actions. not only justifying what has changed, but also forcing me to remember that everything has.